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The week’s going pretty fast. Lectures just ended last week, so I only have some presentations and tests remaining before my short semester break. Though it doesn’t feel like it. I’m at the point where I am contemplating on how to use the time. Use it more efficiently, upskill yourself, read some (educational) books. All those thoughts rush to my brain on how to use my time. Every semester break. And every semester break I seem to not be able to follow what I set myself up to do.
There are some semester breaks that are more filled than others. A few of my semester breaks were solely dedicated to reading light novels. Like literally. I would read an average of one light novel a day for weeks on end. Though my reading speed is probably around average, as I spend most of my waking time dedicated to reading. If I don’t need to focus on something without distractions (say for example, driving), you can bet I was reading.
I know learning to speed read would make me enjoy more books at a faster rate, but I don’t feel like motivating myself in picking up that skill. It’s the same with my typing speed. I learned touch typing after I finished high school, but I only practiced until I got a speed of ~40wpm. I could do better, faster with practice, but I don’t see why in increasing my typing speed. I mean, it does increase, albeit slowly. Currently it’s between 50 and 60wpm, quite okay, but not blazing fast speed.
Most of my life is like that, I can pick up a skill if I put earnest attention to it, and sometimes I would appreciate doing it deliberately; but it doesn’t translate to me mastering it. I don’t have the drive to go beyond acceptable in my eyes. Why master some craft, which would entail years or even decades of one’s life, when doing mediocre is enough to get by. It’s probably that I don’t see something that I would enjoy mastering instead of doing, but I don’t know how to proceed from here.
This website is evidence of that. I write serviceable html and css to present this website in a good manner without anything fancy. I wanted to have multiple columns, fancy animations or a background image, but every time I attempt to do it I give up halfway from the lack of enjoyment of implementing it. The css isn’t mine, it’s technically a framework, though I do change the colour scheme for some personality. I don’t use fancy static site generators, the only thing automated are the blog posts using bashblog, which some people still use but has stopped updating years ago (why would I setup something else when it still works). I have to manually copy pictures that I want to display in my photoroll using scp instead of figuring out a CMS setup to do it seamlessly.
Sure, there’s some extra goodies that doesn’t make it the bare minimum. I setup a favicon so that my website stands out in the tab bar, there’s opengraph on most websites so it’ll look pretty nice if I share my website somewhere else (as far as I understand it, bashblog uses twitter’s opengraph style, so it may look different), there’s rss for what it’s worth. Though those do less compared to changing the layout of my website in other ways.
I probably won’t pick it up unless it comes out of necessity, like how most people function nowadays. There’s so much that can be done, explored and mastered, but that means that I have to manage my time, and I’m bad at doing that. Maybe I have to start with that than other things.
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